Apologies To the Universe
Will you bloody behave
That’s me talking to me, well my mind actually, sometimes I have this inner gremlin that seems to want to sabotage absolutely bloody everything I set my mind to.
Yes, I have read all the books, the Hicks, the Robbins, the Canfield, and yet it seems it does not take much for me to default to my particular vaerion of the Human Condition.
Or perhaps I am in no condition at all.
I wish I could channel Abe, well they said it would not be long, perhaps I will drop a heavy duty meditation and see if I can quiet my mind down enough to recieve their thought. Might have to retune the radio though, because it’s right now tuned to Crapola FM, not Radio Bliss. Perhaps a middle ground of radio quite nice would do for now.
I suppose I should cut myself some slack, I really am only a baby at this Law of Attraction stuff, but it does raise more questions than it answers sometimes.
That said, I know what Abe would say, the would refuse to join me in my self imposed misery and kick my spiritual ass.
Come to think of it, if I am doing this to myself, it’s like a kind of spiritual S and M really isn’t it. Or like the bunny at the start of Watership down who refuses to accept the blessings of the Bunny God (which looked uncannily like the sun), so buries his head in the sand, so the God has to bless his bottom- and that’s why he ends up with the white tail.
Perhaps the Universe will bless my bottom if I ask nicely enough. Or if I open to recieve anough.
I have to confess, that my mood has been on the edge for a while, I don’t know if anyone else has felt that way at all, being more sensitive to things than I normally would, you know, not my normal jovial “Ave a laff” lad that I used to be.
So, I apologise to the Universe for offering such a mixed signal. Sometimes I am my own fairy godmother, whe it comes to my desires, and other times I am the Desire Dark Destroyer. The worrying thind is, I can go from one to another in the space of about 10 minutes. Some mind discipline is in order.
And on top of that, I know we are supposed not to be needy, but surely we all need support, but what exactly is the fine line between letting others support you, and being responsible enough to support yourself, without becoming, Ugh, dependant?
“Thank the teacher”, Abe said in the last conference call, when we were talking about those treasures called relationships, and “Now you have had the experience and learnings, you do not need to repeat it, and you deserve someone who will support fully who and what you want to be in the world”
Now that I can live with.
I wonder whatour responsibility with this information is as well. I mean I have done the “try and help people” thing, and found it to be a bit futile sometimes- anyone else been there? People do seem to be determined to hang on to their suffering.
But, umm,not me obviously.
Whoops.
Suffer, moi?
Good, this blogging is therapeutic, and right now, I would like to send you love no matter who you are, where you are, whatever the colour of your skin is, no matter what your sexuality, no matter anything.
And if you do happen to look like Kylie Minogue and are willing to support exactly who and what I want to be in the world, I would be delighted to hear from you 
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